It's a crazy world!

author's note - this is not a suicide note! :)
All of a sudden there's a feeling of saturation, of having no better and new options in life! It may sound weird but it's true coz it's happening for real!
all of sudden why do I seem to be treading a road which goes on endlessly without the destination ever in sight!
It's clearly not a result of the market meltdown..so absolutely no take on the reasonas to why it's happening!
from confusions in personal life to those in my friend circles to those at the workplace, this world seems to be going crazy!
I can constantly see people pouring out their frustrations on some body else or those grappling with everyday issues which now seem to have become their sore point of life!
there's so much negtivity around that it hits ur nervous system and sends a totally unwanted and dangerous chill down ur spine.
People seem to be searching for answers to questions never asked before (including me) I ,for one, seek a reason for working the way we do..which is purely for existence but has no or little meaning attached to it!
I wonder if all this is due to the monetary issues that people are facing or the world is in a frenzy!
That's all I can pen down right now..am seriously at loss of words for more on this topic..there's just room left for more introspection and self realization!

Person A ko itna gussa kyun aata hai????

"You 6 or 7 guys are trained on all the processes ..do u guys also have one person trained on all the processes for ur client like in my case ?? u know when I went on leave I had to come back and then do all work pending for all those days!" commented (read boasted) this cab mate (person A) of mine 2 days back on our way back home.

This other cab mate of mine (also my team mate) and I didn't quite know how to praise or to even describe our work profile for two reasons - 1) person A was just unreceptive and 2) our job profile is just so vast and indescribable(which I realized tht very moment) ..but the fact of the matter remained - why did person A have to behave in such a manner?

On doing some introspection of the matter, I suddenly realized one thing - as soon as the two of us (my team mate and me) board the cab, we start off discussing the events of the day which some how leaves this person longing for our company or bores this person or ....god knows whtever!

I wonder what triggered the desperation for this person to finally voice his/her opinion or to vent out the frustration or the anger......want for attention is not always good and people still go to forbidden levels to achieve it!

anways this person just chose to ignore us even yesterday and responded only to the driver and the 4th cab mate (who apparently is thoroughly confused by this incident and hence was left from the story line above)

I kept on bothering mysself with the unnecessary nuances of probing into the matter and trying to bridge the newly created distances but was amazed to hear the response from my team mate on disturbing him with my analysis. "What the Hell" is all that came back as the reply..

and now to come to think of the matter..alongwith our everyday tensions and life that is exorbitantly complicated, instead of thinking about the issue againI would rather say myself -

"What the F***!"